Me, Success & My Community!

Success to me is not defined by material objects or by wealth. Success is what you make of it. You can be homeless on the street and have a

successful day and be successful. For example, a homeless person might not have home or food to eat but maybe that day somebody gave them a blanket and a pillow or some food. Success can mean getting the necessities you need to live Success can mean living another day, seeing another tomorrow.  Living in a neighborhood that struggles with gang violence and hardship, you could walk out of your house one day being a innocent person and get shot and killed to death so living another day and not getting harmed is success to some people.  Drug addict make it threw the days, weeks, months even years sober which is success in my eyes. Success to me is the courage  to wake up every morning and fight your demons. My community does not help me to succeed if anything it hinders me.  Living in a poor community sucks, and it is extremely hard to be successful in a neighborhood that all your life you have seen unsuccessful people.  People who are very well capable of going and getting a job but much rather beg for money for drugs and alcohol.People who dropped out of high school that had a chance at success but chose a different route. Living in a poor neighborhood means crappy public education.  I have experienced poor public education first hand and it is hard to get the help and resources the things that I need to be successful when the teachers do not care you cant get tutoring because the school does not have enough money for those kinds of things. When you have people who care and the resources to help and the money for tutoring of course it is easier to thrive and be successful. the teachers at Chabot are like robots they come in to class teach you and try to instill knowledge into you.  But like the other day in my math class I asked for further explanation because I did not understand, my professor continued to just repeat himself he went on a rant and at the end of him talking I was still confused if not more.  My professor is supposed to help me not confuse me even more.   I would say that I am one of my biggest issues I face in college is myself.  I have this incredible ability to get inside of my own head which put a lot of stress on myself. Thinking the worst of everything makes it damn near impossible to thrive and do my best in college. I am my biggest demon, I'm my own worst enemy. I can tear my self to pieces with just my own thoughts and its not like what I'm thinking is a reality or the truth I just beat myself down with these thoughts.  I'm just like every other college student I'm afraid.  I'm afraid to fail at school and at life. I want to be someone who matters I want to make a difference in this world.  So to think the worst possible thing is easy for me because there is so much in my life that could go wrong.  I make it impossible to be a successful thriving person here at Chabot college. Money is another issue that I find makes it hard to thrive at Chabot college.  If you do not have money for classes books supplies etc.  How can you thrive? It is impossible to be the best you, you can be if you don't have the tools necessary.  I had to get a part time job so I can afford school and the things I need to get to school on time.  So my parents wouldn't have to struggle to help me out. It makes life more stressful a part time job and a full time student.  it is hard to be successful.